I've been hiding away from the truth , way too long .
I know its about me , I've always know it right from the
start . But I just tried to act nonchalant about it . I don't
want it to hurt me , I don't want it to disrupt my life . I
like it the way it is now . I don't want to give a hoot about
it . But I'm tired of trying and acting like I don't care .

Its not up to the outsider to judge whats going on in
my life and to the choices I've made . Cause you'd
never know how it is like to be in my shoes .

Do you believe in karma ? I do ;]

I'm super duper very lazy to study for MST . Like what
the shit . I don't seem to have the sense of urgency . Lol .
Epic fail . Feel damn lethargic like everyday . And I'd be
so drained out at the end of the day . And I'm like turning
in at 11plus each day already . Such a no-lifer . I can't
emphasize on how much I wish to finish all the 4 papers
and byebye to school for 3 weeks ! I'm so looking forward
to term break like literally . I'm already planning on
what to do already ! HAHA .

I kind of miss the guy who will laugh at my broken Chinese and
teach me how to speak in proper sentence .

Suddenly I feel that everything in my life is starting to
slow down . I'm not used to this pace . I used to complain
about how hectic my life is , but now its so slow and mundane
that I can't really get used to it . Can't wait for term break to
arrive ! Can't wait for me to turn 18 too , yes a bit too fast
forward since my birthday just passed 2 weeks ago . But
I can't wait to club and drive legally ! And Michelle Ong is
so gonna drive all of us home if we ever drink/club , and the
thought of it feels so great . Fast forward our life by 1 year
pleasezxz . Hehe .

Last night was night no.1 sleeping alone . Like shitzxzx only ,
I was so scared that I didn't dare to sleep . I'm so gonna stay
at home today . And only to go out for facial later to save my
rotten face . ;/ I'm so lazy to study for MST , guess my last
minute cells will never go away . HAHA whatever , I still have
one more week . Till then , hehehe .

Its such a struggle . A part of me wants to let go , another
part of me keep holding on . It was great . Memories are
great , I tried holding on tight to you . Because I think its
the only thing that don’t change when everything else does .

I feel weird now . Feels like I've lost a part of me ...

I'm so glad Acer is so efficient . I can collect my laptop
tomorrow already . Awesome , hopefully it won't give
me anymore trouble . I've got this bad feeling about this
someone . Ah , hopefully it won't come true . ;[